A former worshiper had a song titled "What breaks the heart." And today I want to talk about one of the things that for years broke my heart when I suffered it firsthand and continues to break it when I have to suffer my nieces suffer it. which makes me release these lines hoping that someone can understand and help instead of condemn.
First of all, it is very important that everyone understands that children of pastors have to see things, struggle to understand things and deal with things at a very young age that most Christians do after many years in the gospel.
And when our pastor parents have not been a very good example or a horrible example for us, things are much worse.
Where does a pastor's son go or with whom does he go whose father is known as a super man of God to the rest of the world but in his house he is a devil?
Will you go to a psychologist? No it can not be done!!! Will you go to another brother in the church for help? No, of course not! It is not possible, much less in this time when the sheep idolize their shepherds so much.
Many children of pastors have had horrible parents who are idolized because they are "men of God" and apart from having absolutely no one to talk to about these things, we have the eyes of the entire church demanding that we be an example and be perfect because We are the children of the shepherd while the shepherds do and undo and do not demand the same from them.
My brothers and I, when my father preached about love (which was like three times a year), in the middle of the preaching, one by one the children left the church. No one ever asked why we did it, they only judged us for how "irreverent" we were.
We were that while his father preached they left the church. But they never questioned the pastor...
I myself had three suicide attempts from which by grace God saved me and none of my brothers remains in the gospel, only me and by pure grace. And to top it all off, what they said was "poor pastor, tremendous proof that his children
leave the gospel" but no one ever gave us the benefit of the doubt or asked us why.
I myself once tried to seek help from another pastor and that pastor ended up rebuking me with demons because he had to be demon-possessed to talk about what a tremendous man of God my dad was.
Now I have to endure the suffering of my nieces because they are subjected to the same kind of judgment that they subjected to me and my brothers and I want to tell everyone who reads: PLEASE STOP NOW!!!
There are shepherds who are demons so the sick are healed just by seeing them, even if you think you are the best shepherds in the entire universe.
And in many cases it is super obvious but since most people are idolaters with their pastors they do not notice it because idolatry makes them blind.
My loves, before judging any pastor's son for his attitudes, you better pray, pray for the pastors' sons and ask the Holy Spirit for direction because perhaps idolatry may be blinding you.
I made many mistakes out of desperation and how much prayer I needed, as did my brothers, and what we found was the complete opposite.
And although I don't like attacking anyone. If anyone reading knows me and knows my nieces, please leave the witch hunt with them and pray for them. I know the confusion you go through that sometimes you don't even want to gather together because of the trauma you have experienced.
Pray for them and leave the witch hunt. I needed help and instead people judged me and I made many mistakes. They need people to pray for them, not leaders who keep an eye on whether or not they have a thousand boyfriends and a thousand husbands (remember that if they want to do it, they will do it no matter how much vigilance you give them because the desperation of not understanding what is happening or why a good God allows these things leads one to do crazy things)
You cannot imagine the thousand questions and the thousand questions that one asks against God when the one that everyone idolizes as a man of God is a demon. And if they are good leaders, good deacons, good elders and have some
Compassion and discernment pray instead of judging and marrying witches.
Dear leaders, elders, deacons, messing with my nieces for me will be as if they were attacking me directly and I will do the only thing I half know how to do, pray. Yeah, that should scare them. And no, I'm not threatening anyone.(or am I?!!!!)
And I tell everyone "my loves, be careful, sometimes the idolatry of pastors makes the victims seen as the bad guys and the bad guys as the victims." I suffered from it for more than 30 years and I don't know how many pastors' children are suffering the same thing while people judge them, have a witch hunt for them and demand more from them than from the pastors themselves instead of helping them and praying for them.
The point is that they read this and begin the super saints and wise men "Oh, he is exposing nakedness", "Woe to a man of God", "woe to his own dad" "Oh, what are the wicked of Christianity going to think when they see a christian talking about other"
Aha, haven't you ever wondered what the wicked are thinking when they tell me that the whole city knows what "the man of God" did? I really want to know where that guy is who wrote to me via chat telling me that I shouldn't publish things about him. the church because "what would the people of the world think?"
A few months ago I made a publication and when I finished I asked for forgiveness and said "forgive me, mom, but the closet is full of dry bones." When I came to visit my city, I found out that there were too many bones that the closet exploded and many came out, I think. that not all, dry bones.
And you, my beloved leaders of Anaco, you know that I love you, my love for you was never faked but you are very much to blame.
Let me tell you something, all of you, since when they kicked me out of the house that time unjustly and the pastor made me ask for forgiveness from him and the entire church to be able to return and I had to do it because I had nowhere to live and also I
I was dying of hunger, all of you who mistreated me because you believed the story of the "man of God" all of you were and are guilty before heaven for how miserable my life was and is.
All those who for years knew about the injustices that were done to me but how they were so idolatrous and how they loved so many assumptions, like my ex who knew many injustices that were done to me but he loved being a leader and it worked for him because he is still a leader, but everyone You are guilty before God for how miserable my life was and is.
And yes, all this added to the fact that my dad repeated to me all my life that I am nobody (that I really know that I am nobody and I know that I am no good for anything and this is not low esteem now I know that in fact I am nobody and I In my strength I am of no use because I know it is by grace) All this made me not be arrogant like you know who. That's why I laugh when they call me arrogant.
My dad destroyed all self-esteem but God used him to not be so arrogant. But do they know? The fact that God has used all this so that he is not so arrogant does not make you any less guilty. (And I don't want if you read this - I know some read my posts - that you don't come and ask for forgiveness or anything even though
biblically it's what they should do, but nope, get right with God)
And what I tell them is to try to make up for the bad things they did to me by helping and praying for my nieces. Abandoned by their fathers, abandoned by their mothers. Hey, don't you think your lives are ugly enough already. Leave the witch hunt.
They can say anything. I'm exposing the nudity or whatever, but with what is happening to my nieces I'm already fed up and I want to shout out for all the children of pastors in the world who may be going through this situation, let's see who opens their eyes and gets understanding and help instead of having a witch hunt.
I have had to edit this part, and I put it now like this: "If any leader felt offended and believes that I told lies, I will wait for them to debunk their evidence and show me that I have lied, I have no plans to leave so I will wait for them.
But if they are truly humble and accept their mistakes, they will only listen to me and pray for my nieces and help them.
You offended heaven and also made yourself deserving of hell by not defending me because my Bible says that cowards will go to hell. (sometimes I speak more because compared to the rest of my siblings, I was given more injustices)
Forgive me if I sound too strong but it is for the good of your souls because "blessed is the correction that falls on humble hearts."
And please don't believe you are untouchable, Chávez believed that too. Saul too, Nebuchadnezzar too-
Sometimes they think they are so big... and that God is with them and they are arrogant even though they seem wise and humble.
The people I label does not necessarily mean that they are the leaders who remained silent in the midst of injustices, I just wanted leaders to read and it worked because everything is in an uproar.
The Bible says that the gospel is justice, peace and joy (Rom 14:17) and the interesting thing is that it puts justice before peace and even before joy. Don't you think it's super interesting?
Kisses to all, I am elprofebubba
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