Authority

 For some time now I have prayed for God to give me "Authority" and the truth is I wanted authority to tell a tree "Uproot yourself from here and put yourself there and things like that." I wanted to do big things, I remember that there was a tree in the yard big and I went like Dark Vader in Star Wars to see if he would move the tree, but no, it never moved.

And the truth is that God understood it differently and began to form me in such a way that I would have the authority to say things.

Particularly, I have always loved speaking with a base and that is why sometimes I did a lot of research and I don't like to talk about things that I am not sure about and I don't have enough base. I don't publish -I don't know, imagine what I have done to have bases to give an opinion about something - that's why when I make a post I ask that if someone disagrees they talk directly to me and when I'm not totally sure I like to use the words "I guess" "I imagine" etc.

That is why you will see few people arguing with me and you will see pastors say "Don't talk to him, don't fall into his game" and obviously it is not "my game" but it is because they are afraid that they will believe the truths that I say, some have said from the pulpit "don't read what he writes" but even without anyone reading the truth I can't help but write. After visiting my parents' church I promised myself not to write for a few days and what's the matter, I couldn't, that same week I made about 4 posts.

The truth is that God has His ways and He takes our requests as He wants because He is Sovereign! The issue in my case is that since everything in my life has been painful, the process of having the authority to say things ufff I think has been more than painful.

I can talk about pride and humility, about false and true, about the price of truth and the ease of living in lies, about being sober and moving in emotion... I can talk about many things. And as I once said, "I can do none of that with pride because the price of pain I paid to learn each thing was horrible."

I have horrible marks on my soul but they are what give me the authority to speak about everything.

When I saw that God was giving me what I asked for but not in the way I asked for it, I wanted to give up asking for authority because of the pain it entails and the true truth is that I am very weak, but He already took it from there and I only have to ask. strength to endure the pain of whatever he's giving me authority to do at the moment, I usually realize it's a long time after he does it.

And you? Do you also want authority? Prepare to suffer but the blessing is that heaven will be on your side even if people rejected you - like me -! Those were Pablo's credentials that I mention so much in my publications.

Kisses, I am elprofebubba