How much do you cost?

 I don't know if I've told this story, I don't think so.

Well, I tell you that once, as a miracle, it turned out that I was on good terms with my family, but for months I had felt from God that if I were to go there I would have a very strong task, and I began to tell my wife, "I hope not." call me to tell me to go there" and I repeated it almost every day because I felt more and more worry in my spirit.

In one of those, I think it was my younger sister who called me or wrote to me, I don't remember well, but the truth is that they told me to go there because they would pay my fare and everything, and because of what I felt in my spirit, I started. to make excuses but it turns out that we were going through one of the most difficult times and my wife told me "Come on, at least they will give you a bag of food to bring with you as has happened on other occasions" but what I told her He said, "What I am feeling in my spirit is too strong and I think God is going to make me say some strong things to my parents."

In the end the pressure due to the need for food was so great that I agreed to go. We made all the arrangements and the pressure on me continued and as if wanting to convince God, since I left I did not stop praying "Please do not make me say harsh things to my parents because in the end they never stop me nor does it matter if I always What I tell you has been fulfilled."

Well, I got there, I tried not to talk to them much so as not to give God a chance to tell them anything.

At night I couldn't sleep because of the pressure I felt from what I had to say to them and to make matters worse, God had already shown me what I should say to them but I didn't want to and I didn't sleep, I spent the whole night praying "Lord, you know what we have there." There is a lot of need and every time I come they give me a bag of food. Please don't make me tell them that. Besides, they never give me a pass even though what I have told them has always been fulfilled. If so, I'm sure they won't listen to me. Why do you want me to tell them? Understand me, I could miss a bag of food!" I flatly refused to tell them what God was telling me to tell them because of the bag of food they could give me.

In the end, it dawned and out of nowhere, a conversation came up, I discovered that they had done something very bad to me and I got upset and with a loud voice I ordered my mother to shut up and in front of some people from the church, about two more, Pancha and Kikita. some brothers of mine who were a few meters away and I think I was downstairs for the first time in my life (according to what I remember) I yelled at my parents in front of people who were extra familiar and what I yelled at them was what God had told me to tell them and to which I had flatly refused "for a bag of food."

And the horrendous thing was the way and the words I used that were stronger therefore more offensive than the ones God had told me to say to them.

The words were "You guys dropped your pants before bertucci" after that, since I had screwed up by saying things in the most grotesque way I gave them the rest of the message.

After that my younger sister came out saying "I don't want you here because you yelled at my mother and for my mother I give my life (when it was a hobby for her to yell at her and I also yelled at my father, apart from the fact that she loved me so much). confused because sometimes, having given him the car from my parents, he refused to buy my mother a loaf at the bakery - oh but those are other stories but I needed to establish this context -) and go see how you go because I'm not going to give you money for you to leave"

There God performed a miracle and after praying a lot, a newly met friend of sound doctrine told me "How much do you need, they are going to see what a brother in faith is like, without knowing you, I am going to lend you that money" and a young man from The church helped me throughout the process.

The matter was very traumatic, what my sister did to me was more traumatic than I told it, so much so that I had nightmares that I was there and couldn't find a way to get back EVERY DAY for more than 6 months.

Well, being where I am living, I began to look for learning from the situation and the first thing I thought about was that I practically sold myself for a bag of food that in the end they didn't even give me and they still bothered me for more than 6 months where they didn't even talk to me. , (I was the one who decided to start talking to them - I imagine the sermons my father gave about love in those 6 months)

But the truth is that if it had been up to me I wouldn't say anything that God had sent me to tell them FOR A BAG OF FOOD.

Someone once said: "Every man has his price, what you need is to know what it is."

And today I realize that many Christians have allowed themselves to be bought. I knew closely one who I considered a man of God, who was in a heretical church and when he had decided to leave and had announced it through his networks, it turns out that they offered him a position where he was going to earn a lot of money... "And he accepted "Obviously from there his spiritual life declined because as I have always said "If you are a man of God and you are in a heretical church you either leave or you become one of them. But he had money to buy a new car!

My father once told me "If Bertucci, doing what he is doing, has such a big church, I'm going to do the same."

-He wanted a big church no matter what he had to do, and that's why he sold the true gospel-

And yes, there are some who, like Judas, sell the truth for money, others for their ambition to have a large church, others sell out and no matter how many injustices and crazy things they see in the ministry, they do not say anything to maintain their leadership position. .

There are ministries that already know that people like positions and they have that pyramidal organization where there are a thousand positions and where people can rise, and the truth is that people care little if the church is heretical or not or if what they teach in biblical or not as long as they rise in position or as long as they remain in one.

Others, help from the government and for that help in their pulpits they only give praise to the rulers regardless of the grievances they still do to other Christians and they even give them the pulpit.

A pastor's wife told me "We are too old to work, we are raising two granddaughters and we have a sick son..."

There are so many different prices and ways that the devil and our flesh manipulate us to sell us...!

When I am in difficult moments where I feel like I am being bought, I always remember a song by Ricardo Rodríguez called "Generation" that says in one part "They can't buy us, the price is too high."

And what price do you have?

I don't aim to destroy because I know it's not easy. I pray to God that they can never buy me. May God give us the strength to remain firm even in the moment of greatest need.

Kisses, I am elprofebubba