And Courage

 If there was something that changed my life, it was when early in my youth I read that cowards will go to hell (Rev 21:8) and it shocked me because I used to be (well, actually I still am) kind of a coward.

The biggest problem with all this is that because from an early age I had communion with God I used to be, (well I still am) very zealous with the things of God and I think especially with what we call "the altar" that many do not They like that some of us call him that and really their reasons are stupid (I think I will edit this later so that the crystal generation does not get offended) The truth is that I used to, and I am very zealous with that thing, that part of the church where it is preached, where the singers pass by and sing praises to our God and things like that.

And this obviously applied to myself, when I saw on the billboard that I had to lead a cult and I knew that there was something wrong with me, I tried to fix it before the day arrived and I even tempered with fear that the day might come and I wouldn't. was right with God. (Note that I always spent my time in sin and only sought to sanctify myself when I was going to direct, it is good to clarify)

This jealousy turned out to be a big problem when I read about cowards going to hell (Rev 21:8) because in the church I attended at the time a lot of crazy things were happening (and in the churches I attended later as well) and I thought like you think. many today that just praying was enough and that way I wouldn't get into trouble and I would be happy because the truth is I don't like trouble, SERIOUSLY!

And I prayed for things like many do today but Rev 21:8 was repeated so loudly that it didn't leave me alone (and it still doesn't leave me when I see something).

This zeal linked to not wanting to be a coward and a "special" love for God are what have brought me most of my problems because I do not remain silent because every time I see that the name of the gospel is reviled I have to say , when I see that the altar is defiled by a scoundrel.

I have always had the delicacy (that I remember only except on one occasion) to say things to leaders or pastors in private, but even so this has brought me most of my problems. Pastors have even hated me, thrown me aside for telling them what is biblically wrong, especially in the pulpit.

I clarify that I am not a Saint and I like people to know it, several times I have said that I can talk about false Christians because I was one of them, and I still struggle with many things but I do not consider myself a saint nor do I use grace as a excuse but that I struggle day by day with many things, and I fight and fight and fight.

I knew of a case closely where a leader of a praise group impregnated a girl at a Marcos Witt concert (yes, gentlemen, just as he reads it at a Christian concert) and the boy only asked for forgiveness when he uncovered the pot and all the church knew it. That is not repentance, he did it because he was forced to do it and before the pot was uncovered he continued playing the role of the Lord's worshiper and holy Levite.

And the pastors, since they were friends of his parents, practically wanted to put him in charge again two days later. Pleaserrrrr Where is the zeal today? Where is the love for God? Well, the truth is, one of the leaders of the church stated that she did not agree and not one of the pastors fell on her saying "As if she had never sinned, she thinks she is very holy" -I attest to this because they said it in front of me, I don't like to say anything that can be refuted with the truth, I am the one who refutes others with the truth!

Another case, a praise singer from the church where she belonged lived with another guy besides her husband, the girl lived near the pastors' house and the whole neighborhood knew the story and they were surprised that this woman continued leading the praises and I told her. I said to one of the pastors privately and do you know what they responded to me? She told me "I wasn't there when she was hitting her husband so I can't do anything, she is going to continue leading the praise, she is the only one in the praise group who does it well."

They didn't investigate or anything and in the end the girl left the church on her own accord and went to live with her lover. God, what's going on I wonder? Was zeal for God lost?

On one occasion it was learned that a guy from the choir had had relationships with several girls from the church (I can't call him brother and I can't call them sisters because they weren't little girls who deceived them) and do you know what the Pastor said? ? He said "Poor thing, he has been without a wife for a long time" and do you know what the leaders said? NOTHING!!! Because it seems that leaders are only there to be bootlickers.

How sad, what pain, you can't imagine the pain it gives me because PLEASE IT'S THE CHURCH OF CHRIST!

On another occasion, I found a young woman from the church having sexual relations in the middle of the sermon (yes, in the middle of the sermon). I was finishing leading the praise and I decided to wipe my sweat with a cloth that I remembered having seen. in a little room over there and there I went and found them (It's not that I'm always gossiping, it's that I'm always in places where I shouldn't be, sometimes I'm just in a place and things happen, you can't imagine how many times it's happened to me ).

And the truth is that it lasted about two days in the processor because the impression was strong, especially because it was in the middle of the preaching and for other reasons.

The truth is that I told one of the pastors and he told me "Maybe she is going to lead the youth service because she is the only one of the young people who knows how to move it in praise" (I didn't say it so they would remove her, I just said because I had to do it) and the young woman continued leading the praise even on Sundays as if nothing had happened and the young man who was with her who served as one of the youth leaders continued in his duties as if nothing had happened! It seems incredible that this is happening in the church “of Christ”.

Where is the zeal today? Where is the love for God? The leaders are cowards and have lost their zeal and obviously their fear of God.

I remember a leader who knew many things, but she didn't want to say anything to the pastors because she didn't want them to remove her from the leadership and it would happen to her like me when one of the pastors even told her (I don't know how many, but only one confessed it to me). ) not to hang out with me because I was a bad influence. So this leader didn't say anything and she doesn't say anything to this day. I told her a few weeks ago "You are a coward and you don't love God because you prefer a position over God because you see how the altar is defiled and you don't say anything just to keep your position and because you love it when everyone speaks well of you." ", I told him "you may be loved and known in the church, but a shame to heaven."

Where is the zeal? Where is the love for God?

We Christians have become a bunch of cowards who only want to have a "good reputation" but are a shame from heaven even when thousands love us.

We have become the scum of the world, said Paul, but we today do not want that. We want to be loved and for everyone to see us as beautiful and in the process we have denied our God.

God have mercy

As for me, simply, after more than 30 years of not being able to keep quiet, I still can't keep quiet, after more than 30 years my stomach turns when I see the altar being defiled, it still turns and God forbid that it stops. It happens like this, my family sees me as a shame and everyone sees me badly.

I pray that you who read this are not a coward and find in you zeal for what is God. WITH ALL WISDOM AND LOVE.

A man of God once said: "Like a sailor I once saw slapping a soldier because - he said - he "insulted my mother," so my Lord is insulted and his church undermined. And believe me, in the face of this double insult, I "I suffer. The church has many adversaries, can my sword sleep in its sheath? Never!"

My sword will not sleep either.

Kisses

elprofebubba