Important Learning

 I JUST WANT TO SHARE WITH EVERYONE THIS THAT I WROTE TO A SISTER:

Good morning beloved.

I just want to share with you something interesting that God has been teaching me for several months.

I come from an old Pentecostal current. Where one could not ask for help and if they asked you how you felt you had to say "blessed and victorious" even if your soul was in pieces inside because if you didn't do it that way it meant you had no faith.

I come from a current where practically, how you feel doesn't matter because you live by faith. And you just need to pray and read the Bible and that's it.

I come from a current where preaching giving words of encouragement was considered bad preaching because sermons should always be confrontational.

About a year ago God began to destroy all that in me. When he made me understand that you need people! That yes, there is God and you have to go to him first and there is his word and you gain encouragement in it. But I could understand that you still need people.

In my time in Santa Cruz, I practically spent the day praying just like here. And there were times when I cried out to God asking Him to give me people to talk to because strangely and against everything I know, and I had learned throughout my life, I felt like I needed someone to give me a word or just listen to me.

There were times when it was a matter of life or death. I had the spirit of suicide screaming in my ear and many times I went on Facebook and Twitter begging for help and to my pain many pastors thought I was crazy, others posted on their accounts that they should not pay attention to me because I was a stalker (because I wrote to them several times asking for help) and they all blocked me, well-known Latin pastors like Miguel Nuñes, Sugeil Michelen... they didn't even answer me :(

In this horrible way I learned two things: first that most pastors are useless hahaha That pastors have no discernment and that they have the Holy Spirit as an ornament. Because if they were led by the Holy Spirit they would have known that I was a truly needy soul.

That made me even more depressed because I thought of all the people who could have been like me and those pastors who are there to help people, treated me like a crazy person and a stalker for bothering them for help. It is something quite out of their mind.

That they seek you out asking for help and you as a pastor You call the person a stalker because they bother you. "My boy, you are a pastor, that's what you're here for, your job is to help souls in need."

And of course the other thing I learned is that we need people, we are spiritual people, but in carnal bodies, just as we have physiological needs, we also have emotional needs.

I was born into this, I firmly believed like many that if someone was sad or depressed it was because they had not sought God. And God corrected me for all that in the most horrible way.

Imagine, since I was thirteen I prayed more than 5 hours a day. When I arrived at Santa Cruz, due to the needs I was going through, I dedicated myself to learning about prayer from the greatest men of prayer who have ever existed: Spurgeon, Wesley, Finney, Tozer, Muller...

And I read the Bible more than ever in my life.

And even so I felt that I needed and need a word of encouragement from someone or a hug or to simply be heard.

It seems wrong and I even had to look for biblical support, because I couldn't believe that everything I believed all my life was wrong and yes, I found biblical support.

1 Thessalonians 5:11, Romans 1:12, 2 Corinthians 1:4, Romans 12:10, 1 Thessalonians 5:11-14

And the last verse is very interesting because it gives balance. Correcting those who are wrong and encouraging those who need a word of encouragement.

When I can make posts again I will make a post clarifying this because like many, I also practiced that kind of rigid gospel, where if I saw someone discouraged instead of "crying with those who cry" as the Bible says or giving them a word of encouragement, I judged them as people who needed to seek God.

I recently heard a sermon that said that if you felt bad and asked yourself how you were, you couldn't say that you felt bad because that is a lack of faith.

Obviously we can't be like the cartoon character called "Calimero", always with a spirit of compassion, that's not biblical either!

The apostle Paul openly expressed when he felt sad (Romans 9:2, Phil 2:27) and Jesus himself openly expressed when he felt sad (Mat 26:38). But even so, the apostle Paul wrote a letter called "The Book of Joy" where we are urged in many ways to be happy despite everything but we are never urged to hide how we feel.

A hug my love, I just wanted to share this.